He didn't come at all. That's all I could ever think. It was my first time coming to a ball event like this, and he bailed on me. It's funny because he's someone I thought he would never do things like this. I am so convinced that he's a good guy, but he's not!

I don't know what to feel right now. Alex ruined my night, but right! He's just a stranger to me. We're not even that close! But he has no right to bailed on me.

I spend the night being lonely. Some guys were asking for a dance with me, but I keep rejecting them because I was waiting for him! That holly molly! I don't freaking deserve to bail on!

I went back to our room, and of course, he wasn't there. I remember taking my meds earlier because my sister keeps reminding me to take them. Well, I don't take meds because they are useless in my case. I'm dying, and no one can change that.

The next morning, I didn't see him again. Now, I don't think that I have a roomie because he keeps disappearing whenever he likes! His habits are that bad, does he always do this thing? I hope not. He definitely should have the best reason in the world for bailing on me last night!

I spend all my day without seeing him, which was weird because I always see him somewhere. Did something happen to him? I mean, he did wrong to me, but I don't wish something happen to him. I can get mad for reasonable reasons, but I'm not as bad as you think.

He should give me a good reason when I find him! Because I couldn't think of any reason why he did that.

We only have three days left here, and I don't want to end bad things with him. I can forgive him. I think I could and should. I'm dying anyway and definitely won't see each other again.

I was walking down the hallway, planning to go to the deck for fresh wind and view. I sat down at a deck chair, watching people have fun with their families and friends while I don't have one here.

I quickly looked at an old lady, who suddenly sat down at the deck chair beside me. I was hoping a little that Alex was her. I sighed as I looked away.

"Are you looking for someone, dear?" She asked gently. I looked at her again, and she was smiling at me, which reminds me of Alex. I smiled back.

"No, I'm not. I just came here for fresh wind and view," I immediately said, trying not to be too defensive.

"I think you do, dear... it's okay to be true sometimes," She replied while looking at the kids, who were playing at the kid's pool. Probably her grandchildren.

I suddenly remembered my Mom. I could imagine how happy she would be when she met Kelly's kids. They're wholesome and love me even though I was so hard to be loved, and I love them too.

"I guess," I said, unconsciously. Maybe, the old lady was right. I keep lying to myself that I would be fine, "Was I wrong to keep them happy first before myself?" I asked, almost a whisper.

"There's nothing wrong with that... and there's also nothing wrong for you to be happy first. What makes you happy? What are the things that you like to do? Is he making you happy?" I immediately looked at her and quickly shook my head because of what she said in the end.

"No! I have no boyfriend," I hurriedly said while I was waving my both hands at her, which makes her laughed.

"Oh, dear," She shook her head as she looked at me, "Then who's the man are you trying to find here?" She accusingly asked as if I was hiding something from her.

Why am I suddenly became a criminal who's being interrogated by an old lady?

"I came here for fresh wind and view... and nothing more," I firmly said.

"Okay, dear, if that's you want to believe in." She said as she nodded her head lightly and stood up to go to her grandchildren.

"Babies, don't go too far!" She said, which makes me chuckled. Babies? That's what I call on Kelly's kids. Although, they're only three kids and easy to remember.

I went back to my room, and as usual, he was not there. I'm tired of freaking play hide and seek with him. He should come out and face me!

I sat down at my bed as I let out a big sigh. I've decided to work on my bucket list. I leaned against the headboard of my bed as I slightly looked at Alex's bed beside mine. I sighed again.

I put out my notepad and my pen as I starter listing stuff on it. I suddenly stared at the word 'Ball event with someone.'

"Now, it's not gonna happen because of what he did," I said in so much annoyance.

I was a little mad and sad at the same time. I could have enjoyed the night if he only came, but he didn't. I expected something for the first time that would actually make me happy.

What's wrong with him?

I spend hours thinking about new stuff that I could add up on my thingy. I was getting tired and bored, and yet I couldn't stop thinking about the possible reasons why Alex did that to me.

I thought that we were getting along, but I guess we did not. Maybe, I'm the only one who's feeling and thinking that.

I suddenly looked at my wristwatch, realizing that it was time to take meds. I stood up when I remembered putting it on the bathroom's cabinet.

I walked inside the bathroom as I went straight to the cabinet and opened it. I took the bottle of pills as I stared at the mirror in front of me, thinking if I should take this or not.

I found myself taking it all out to the sink as I opened the faucet and watched the pills slowly got soaked as it melts.